Conviction

Praise God I don't know how to act today. I slept untill 7:30. Small miracle for me. Starting my day with conviction. Do I touch God before my feet touch the floor everyday? Not like I should. Yes I pray but not always like I should. Remember you get out what you put in. God desires us to comunicate with daily. He wants us to have a relationship with him. Do you barely speak to the ones you love? No I know I don't. Do we only talk to him to whine and complain?
He desires deepness and closeness and he deserves it. How many people have died for you? Just him . He deserves more. I love him and I'm thankful for him convicting me on my laziness. I want to know him more.

Reaching Out

We as Christians focus on reaching out to the lost. The strangers, drunks, and just plain sinners.
That's all good but we often fail to reaching out to our brothers and sisters in the church.
We all know how to act "church". Say the right things, look the right way. If you've been serving God any length of time you know what I'm talking about.
How often do we really reach out to each other? Just because I may be smiling on the outside dosen't mean I'm not dying on the inside. 
Alot of times we're so busy being strong for everyone else we don't deal with things like we should.
We even consider it a sign of weakness to be the one on the needing end.
Always pray for one another. Let's lift each up with words of encouagement.
Be sensative to the spirit. Always bearing each others burdens.
You just never know how close someone may be to giving up. 



 

2013 so far

This year has been long. I had a heart attack in Feb. I was told I had 2 major blockages and they felt stints wouldn't be a good idea. I really didn't want to have open heart surgery. The thought of it terrified me.
I'm only 42. Why is this happening to me?
I prayed and sought the Lord for peace. I begged and pleaded for him to heal me. Please don't let me have to go through this.
Peace finally came less then 6 hours before surgery. He touched me in such a mighty way that only he could do. There was no fear just peace.
I showed up at the hospital with a smile on my face and a song in my heart. I knew my God was with me.
I don't even remember being put out.
What was supposed to be a 3 maybe 4 hour surgery ended up taking 8 hours. I ended up having 5 bypasses. It was bad. The dr told my family that I probley would not have been here much longer if I wouldn't have had it done.
I woke up in icu and couldnt see or speak. I do remember a man holding my hand and keeping me calm all night while I was incubated. His name was Gabriel. I am so thankful for him. Sometimes I wonder if he was even real. I had no clue about what was going on those first few days. I just found out that my oxygen was very low and thats why I had to be in icu for so long.
I was finally able to go home and was there for 2 weeks when i got an imfect tion. I ended up back in the hospital for 12 more days. I had to have a wound vac put in my chest. I was told I would have to have it for 6 months and plastic surgery to close my chest.
God was so good to me. He performed a miracle. He closed my chest. My dr said in all his years of being a surgeon he has never seen this happen. I wore it a month.
I have had some depression and stuff come at me recently. I've been crying about little stupid things about wanting to feel normal again.
I really had to repent. God has been with me the whole time. Praise God for the pain. Atleast I'm alive. I know he has a purpose for me. He's not finished with me yet. I have come a long way in a short time. I give him the glory because it was his mercy that has kept me.
I want to thank all of you that have been praying for me. I love you all and am praying for God to bless all of you.