2013 so far

This year has been long. I had a heart attack in Feb. I was told I had 2 major blockages and they felt stints wouldn't be a good idea. I really didn't want to have open heart surgery. The thought of it terrified me.
I'm only 42. Why is this happening to me?
I prayed and sought the Lord for peace. I begged and pleaded for him to heal me. Please don't let me have to go through this.
Peace finally came less then 6 hours before surgery. He touched me in such a mighty way that only he could do. There was no fear just peace.
I showed up at the hospital with a smile on my face and a song in my heart. I knew my God was with me.
I don't even remember being put out.
What was supposed to be a 3 maybe 4 hour surgery ended up taking 8 hours. I ended up having 5 bypasses. It was bad. The dr told my family that I probley would not have been here much longer if I wouldn't have had it done.
I woke up in icu and couldnt see or speak. I do remember a man holding my hand and keeping me calm all night while I was incubated. His name was Gabriel. I am so thankful for him. Sometimes I wonder if he was even real. I had no clue about what was going on those first few days. I just found out that my oxygen was very low and thats why I had to be in icu for so long.
I was finally able to go home and was there for 2 weeks when i got an imfect tion. I ended up back in the hospital for 12 more days. I had to have a wound vac put in my chest. I was told I would have to have it for 6 months and plastic surgery to close my chest.
God was so good to me. He performed a miracle. He closed my chest. My dr said in all his years of being a surgeon he has never seen this happen. I wore it a month.
I have had some depression and stuff come at me recently. I've been crying about little stupid things about wanting to feel normal again.
I really had to repent. God has been with me the whole time. Praise God for the pain. Atleast I'm alive. I know he has a purpose for me. He's not finished with me yet. I have come a long way in a short time. I give him the glory because it was his mercy that has kept me.
I want to thank all of you that have been praying for me. I love you all and am praying for God to bless all of you.